At Which I Scratch My Head....

Not that I want to complain by any means...NO WAY.  I WILL.NOT complain.  I will however scratch my head because I am a little puzzled.

OK, so you all know that I have been trying to lose some weight since the new year.  It was not a resolution by any means because those of course are meant to be broken.  My weight loss was going to be a life change. 

--->>>Eat better. 

--->>>Portion control.

--->>>Exercise more. 

--->>>Drink more water.

You know the drill, right?

So then if you have been reading my blog for any length of time, you know that I have completely fallen off the wagon so to speak.  I started a new job a couple months ago (mid Feb) and ever since then because of my new hours (for the most part), I have very limited time in the late afternoon/evening to exercise (much)....Long story short, although I have been more conscious to my eating choices, portion control, etc...still not drinking nearly enough water ...but......even with that, I have lost another 20 or so pounds since the last time I weighed in!

I got on the scale today over at my mother in laws house and had to ask her if it was broken.  That is how stunned I was.  I thought for sure that I wasn't losing anything rather feeling kinda sluggish lately and packing it back on...but no siree bob. 

I am still in shock.  And this gives me hope that even the small changes can make a difference (not to mention I think part of my weight gain was due to stress from my other job too). 

I am almost half way to my goal!  I am so excited!  I can visualize my goal weight...it is within my grasp. 

How are you doing on your weight loss goals?



Weigh In Wednesday 2/13

Weigh In Wednesday.

Oh.How.I.Will.Eventually.Dread.You.

But not yet.

Things are still peachy.

So I am happy.

I am down another couple pounds with this last weigh in on Sat morning.  Which is kinda funny because I went to the gym, every intention of working out and then my 14 year old had a *crisis* so I didn't even make it out of the locker room, but I made sure I at least got to weigh myself.

Total weight loss so far is 16.8 lbs in 45 days/approx 6 weeks.  Therefore if I am doing the math right I am losing about 2 1/2 lbs on average per week.  I am hoping and praying I can keep this up but of course I am preparing for that ugly word we all probably hit eventually: PLATEAU. 

I started my new job this week so I have not made it to the gym AT ALL this week.  I am ok though because I am walking a lot more at my new job being that the building is so big.  Just to go to the bathroom, it is a maze through the floor that I am on...and then I have been to/fro to our lovely Reception lady with questions, supply orders, etc.  She is one floor up so up and down the stairs I go.  Often.  I am confident I am burning more calories at this job than I ever did at my old one.  AND I am eating better overall, brown bagging my lunch pretty much everyday (which is also helping my pocket book too). 

:::For breakfast, I had 2 hard boiled eggs and a banana.

:::For lunch, I had Grilled Chicken Slices, an Apple & Cheese Chunks. 

:::For afternoon snack, I had a sliced up tomato and some cheese its.

:::For dinner, two slices of pizza.

Not too shabby.

Ohh and if/when I decide I want or need a little bit of help, which may come when I start getting discouraged....There is a Weight Watchers Group at work.  Several ladies within the company are part of the group so they actually have a leader that comes into the office for the weekly meeting, weigh ins, etc.  How cool is that? 

So there you have it.  My week.  Short and sweet.

How has your week been going?  Any struggles?  Milestones?  Just remember every step is a victory! 

Weigh In Wednesday 2/6

Well, well, well...it is Wednesday and time for the "dreaded" WIW post. 

How'd I do after last week? Remember, I didn't really do a WIW post instead I talked about another major life change.  I am all about change these days (apparently).

I am glad you are here and glad you asked.  You asked, right?

 I lost a couple ounces, down just shy of 15 lbs (see my ticker on the sidebar).  I am just thankful I didn't gain.  I thought for sure I would have gained but since I was not going to the gym, I was very conscious to what I was putting in my belly so not to overindulge too much. 

I honestly didn't do that bad for only hitting the gym once last week. Yes, I only went once. It is disappointing but it was another not so good week. I am back on it this week though. Hitting it hard. And then not sure how it is all going to play out once I start my new job on Feb 11. They have a gym in the building that I could use and I might walk on the treadmill on my lunch for 20 minutes each day however I only have an hour lunch and have to eat lunch too so AND not so sure if I want to come back to my cube smelling all sweaty. I am sure my cube mates would just adore me then.   I am also on the 14th floor so I thought maybe just maybe I would get off on the 12th floor and walk the rest and slowly work my way down and then up the stairs as the days pass.  Not sure I will ever walk 14 floors, but never say ever, right?

I wanted to post a picture of my starting point and a recent one I took and was supposed to post last week, but my phone was giving me grief.  I know you might not notice a huge difference, but I can feel it.  That shirt is a bit more loose (can you tell just a little bit?).  Any my pants no longer as snug as a bug in a rug. I'm slowly getting there.  I know I dropped a size because I am fitting into some shirts that I haven't worn in a while.  It feels good.



How was your week?  Did you lose?  Gain?  What has worked for you?

We Interrupt My Normal Blog Post...

With something "possibly" as life changing as weight loss.  Of course it is Wednesday and I was supposed to have a Weigh In Wednesday post but let me just say this week has been by NO MEANS an ordinary week in my life.

I QUIT my job on Monday.  A job that I have held with the same company for 17 years.  17 years!  Now grant it I have a new job, not like I just up'd and left without another place to land HOWEVER it was still no easy task.  I have been given an opportunity that was just to good to pass up so I took the plunge, accepted the position and start at my new position on Feb 11th. 

I am EXCITED.  I am NERVOUS. I am ANXIOUS. a bundle of nerves, especially as I anticipated putting in my notice over this past weekend.  So many things have been going through my mind the last couple days, like the "what ifs." 

:::What if this wasn't the right decision? 

:::What if the company that I go to work for is more unstable or cattywhompass than the company I am leaving?

:::What if the company I am going to work for is sold to another big conglomerate (there has been lots of mergers in my industry) and I don't get "sold" with it?

Ohh my goodness my head has been spinning.

There is something to be said for knowing the ropes, heck, designing the ropes since I came into the company when is was only a few years old and being at the top...and now, to start all over again, after 17 years at a new company.  It is nice that I won't necessarily be low man on totem pole because I am going in at a much higher level than entry level and there is lots of room for growth but still I am the "new girl".  Did I mention 17 years?  I have not been the "new girl" for 17 years!

I still have a hard time a couple days into it; I don't think it has "fully" hit me yet.   As I am cleaning out my office, transitioning my clients to another Account Manager, etc....bittersweet. Some of my clients I have had for years! I have built relationships with them.  Many of the client contacts I consider "friends".  They trust me with their business, I trust them to continue to pay the contract and to be honest with me if things slip up.  They have been through a lot with me and I with them.  Wow.  When I say it like that, I get a lump in my throat.  And as I wind down this week, Friday being my last day even though I did give the customary two week notice, the owner said if I could button everything up sooner than she would let me leave early with pay.  I think how can I possibly button up 17 years in 4 days.  But I am trudging along.   I am doing the best I can but I know something is going to be missed.  But what do you do.  As of Friday, these clients will no longer be mine.  They will be someone elses'.  I have to let go, move on, change. 

Change to the "new girl".  I can reinvent myself (not that I think I need to but...) start fresh.  A new beginning.  New beginings are good, right?  Change is good even when it is HARD.  I know this.


To close, when sending my notification out to all my client contacts, I received so many well wishes, we are going to miss you responses, thanks for doing a good job for all these years, that tears welled in my eyes...BUT, there is one response that I will forever hold dear, it was actually from a client contact for a NEW client that only signed on with our company in November...The contact and I, hit if off pretty quick, there was just something about her and she knew there was something about me.  She emailed me and told me that she printed out my"tag line" on my email which is:

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. Ephesians 4:29

She said she taped it on her computer to remind her everyday and that it really gave her encouragement in an unencouraging world.  I cried.  Who knew something so simple as that, something I sometimes even removed from my emails so not to offend some, would have such an impact on someone. GOD knew.  That is who. And through that tag line, I was able to be a light to someone when they needed it.  Ahhhmazing.  GOD is good and works in mysterious ways.


And....

On another note, I can't get my phone to load pictures to show you a recent This is Me picture but since this really isn't a Weigh In Wednesday post I guess it doesn't matter.  And since my life has been a bit chaotic the last couple days, I have not been to the club since Saturday.  When I weighed in, I had gained a pound back from the previous week.  Ugh! 

By the way, I have next week off.  I am going to spend some extra time with the kids, go to the club everyday, going to relax, get reorganized, and reenergized before I tackle the next chapter.

How was your week?  Do anything exciting?



Weigh In Wednesday 1/23

I'm a bit discouraged.  There I said it.  I only made it to the gym 2 times so far this week and tomorrow doesn't look like it will be condusive to it...Ughhh.


I had been *starting* my week from Wednesday to Wednesday because of the WIW posts however I have revamped it and now my week is Saturday to Saturday.  I found that I felt I was sabotaging myself a little bit by rushing from work to the gym on Wednesdays to work out and weigh in to get this post up while it is was still technically Wednesday.  It just wasn't working on every front.  So although I am still posting them as Weigh In Wednesdays I am actually weighing myself on Saturday mornings...which I heard that morning weight is the most accurate anyways....Right?  (And Saturday is the only day I can go to the gym in the morning).

I am obviously not losing nearly as much weight as I did the first two weeks or so by any means which is also a bit discouraging but I am soldiering on.  I got to get this weight off one way or another but by doing it the right way.  It is H-A-R-D!  I am sure anyone who has tried to lose weight, feels my pain.  I sometimes wish there was a magic pill because I am a self professed foodie at heart and love, love, love to cook and go out to wonderful restaurants, etc and because sometimes I just want to be lazy and not do anything.  And I know I can still do all that but while I am going through this, whole really trying my darndest to lose weight, I feel a little bit off because I feel like if I do those things, cook awesome meals for my family, go out to dinner with friends, etc...then again, I feel like I am sabotaging myself because I lack this little thing called willpower sometimes most of the time.  Difficult, so difficult I tell you.

On a *lighter* note (ha! pun intended) I am going to take a picture next week to post wearing the same workout shirt that I took my picture in the first time.  It is feeling a bit loose now so I know even though the pounds are not necessarily dropping like its hot, I am losing some inches and bloatedness.  Hopefully you will be able to tell.

Ok, so without further ado...Saturday when I weighed myself, in the morning, before my work out....I weighed 265.8 which makes my total weight loss at 13.8 pounds!  Still have a loooong, loooong journey but....taking it day by day.

Oh and remember the food diary that I was going to start, yeah didnt' happen.  Nice thought, bought the book, didn't write anything down.  Yup, another thing to work on.  Carry on.

How was your week?  What worked for you?  Didn't work?

 

 



Weigh In Wednesday 1/16

Well here we are again…Wednesday, the day I will probably dread when I hit a plateau…but for now I am loving it!

I am feeling better with each passing day. I am feeling lighter and have a nice little spring back in my step. 

 

My working out is now becoming a habit, second nature.  I did however fall down a little bit these past couple days because LIFE.INTERRUPTED and I didn't get to the club until today.  (My goal is 3-4 times a week for at least an hour).

 

With that being said I prepared myself for the worse when I stepped on the scale BUT....

 

It wasn't so bad afterall, thankfully.  I weighed myself on Saturday and I am still the same, haven't gained any from then or lost any.  I am now at 12.6 lbs lost. I figure slow and steady wins the race, right?  I didn't put this weight on over night and I can not lose it overnight. 

 

I am still drinking lots and lots of water and  have decided I am going to start writing a food journal.  I did this several years ago when I lost 60lbs through Weight Watchers.  I have also decided to eat more green salads at lunch and dinner to "fill me up".  This was another habit WW taught me way back when and helped me.  It may not help everyone but it helped me.

 

I am down a size so this evening I did some retail therapy and bought myself 3 (new to me) shirts. 

 

Which reminds me, I have a new little venture I am working on as a result of my current and ongoing weight loss.  I figured I am not going to have the money nor will I want to buy a new wardrobe every time I lose a few pounds, drop a size, so I am in the early stages of creating a community clothing swap for women.  This is not a new concept by any means but something that I have seen only a handful of times around our area and mostly for childrens clothing.  It will be for women of all shapes and sizes and will not only be geared to those that have lost weight but for those that have gained weight as well.  Everyone is welcome.

 

I have started a website for it and am slowly working towards getting it off the ground.  My goal is to have the first swap the first part of March 2013.   

 

Evolving Closet Clothing Swap: Let your clothes EVOLVE with you.

 

As soon as I have the website up and running I will put a link on my blog.  I hope you will check it out.

 

I am excited for both my ongoing weight loss and this new venture. 

 

How did you do this week?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

---->--->---->Did You See?

I weighed in this afternoon after publishing my post earlier today and yup, I lost a little bit more....


See my ticker.


I have lost a total of 11 lbs!


Woot!  Woot! High Five!  Fist Bump!

I'm not excited or anything.

Have a good evening!

Weigh In Wednesday 1/9

It's time.  Weigh In Wednesday.  I promised ya'll so I am going to deliver.


Are you ready?

Drum roll, please.....


Since 12/27/12 I have lost 9.8 lbs. 

I weighed in on Monday since I didn't go to the gym yesterday but I am going to weigh in again this afternoon and may revise this based on those numbers.  I am crossing my fingers that I can report a little bit more weight loss.

Overall though, 9.8 lbs in 13 days I think is a pretty darn good start.  Like I said in another post, I know a lot of the initial weight loss is water weight and shock to your system, but I will take every ounce.

What have I been doing? 

I have been working out on average every other day.  Nothing majorly intense yet.  I am easing my way into things.  I don't want to over do it too quickly and then burn out.  My work outs generally have consisted of 20-30 mins cardio (either treadmill or bike) and 20-30 mins of free weights.  On the treadmill, I am working my way up every other day to higher inclines and speed.  As long as I can get through the first 15 minutes, then I am usually good for the rest of the time.  It is just getting through that first 15 where my body is telling me to, "Stop, I'm tired.  Go sit down."  LOL.  Actually because of my weight, both my knees and hips hurt from the impact which is why I have been riding the bike at times instead.  I might even try the elliptical to see if that is less impacting.  I know I need cardio though so even if I am in pain, I am pushing through.  For me, in the past, cardio is what has helped me shed the pounds quickly.

What have I been eating?

I have not changed my eating habits drastically.  I am not starving myself or even counting calories.  I am just being more diligent of what I am eating, when I am eating and even why I am eating.  No more boredom eating or late night snacks.

Here is what I ate yesterday.

Breakfast: Turkey Sausage Whole Wheat Bagel w/Egg.  Skinny Hot Chocolate.

Snack:  3 celery stocks with peanut butter.

Lunch:  Lean Cuisine Salisbury Steak and Mashed Potatoes. Pear.

Snack:  Banana

Dinner:  Raviolis & Brussel Sprouts

Snack:  Popcorn

And of course throughout the day, tons and tons and tons of water.  Did I mention tons of water?  I have a liter Dasani bottle that I refill several times throughout the day at work/home, add 2 packets of Crystal Light and I am good to go.  It has to be super cold though.  I can not drink warm or even room temperature water.  Ick.  Water.  It does a body good.  Rids your body of toxins. Appetite suppressant.  Next time you think you are hungry, drink an 8oz glass of water.  You were probably thirsty, not hungry.

We even had a birthday lunch on Sunday (for my husband) complete with a big juicy burger and fries which I thought would totally do me in but it didn't because I was conscious to what I  ate the rest of the day.  Instead of baking or buying a whole cake for him, I bought a single slice of German Chocolate Cake at the bakery and we shared it.  No risk of having a full cake hanging around, calling my name. "Jennifer, eattt me....Eattt me".   No, thank you!

I know 9.8 lbs doesn't sound like a lot but I already feel lighter.  My skin looks better.  My body isn't as achy all the time and I have been sleeping more sound too.  I am hoping that I can keep up this pace because if I can, I will be at my goal weight in no time at all.  I'm excited!

I found this 10 Commandments of Weight Loss and thought I would share it.  It sums it up pretty nicely.

Source

Until next time, keep walking and drink lots of water!

Have you had success/failure with your weight loss this week?  Please email or comment.  I would love to support and encourage you on your journey.

Can I Just Say....WOW!

I mean I knew I had ahhhhsome readers and followers...and I knew that the blogosphere is full of great supportive people but ....the responses I have been receiving on a few of my recent weight loss posts, have been more than I ever anticipated and they are so helpful in motivating me even more.

I am doing this for me but now I will be doing this for you too!  I am the everyday average women who struggles with her weight.  I want to share it all with you which is why I had to *get real* and post that picture of myself at my starting point.   

A few of you have chimed in that you are on the same journey and I commend you and want to support you just as you are supporting me!  I think support, encouragement and accountability help everyone be successful in many endeavours. 

A few have said you are not ready or just don't think you can do it and that is ok.  It will only work for you, when you are ready.  Only you can make the change.  But I hope that I can be an inspiration to you that you really can do this without the gimmick diets, without the magic pills, meal replacement shakes/bars, etc. 

I posted this quote on my personal Facebook status a few days ago....Did you know I have a I'm Not Superwoman fan page? 

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step – Lao Tzu.

And it is so true.  For those of you who are still on the fence about starting your weight loss journey start out with a single step. 

:::Take the stairs.

:::Park further away at the mall or store. 

::::No going back for seconds.

::::Cut out that pop a day habit.  (or several)

::::Walk.  If only for 20-30 mins a day.  Walk. 

::::Drink lots of water.

I am by no means an expert, obviously, but I have implemented a few of these small changes and they have already shown me results that I will write about tomorrow in my Weigh In Wednesday post.  I am still on the fence whether or not I am going to do a linky.  Maybe I will find some time this weekend to set it up and create a really cool button.  We'll see. 


Again, thank you all so much for your supportive words.  I appreciate you all more than words can even convey.

See you tomorrow.

Think Healthy. Be Healthy.

Visualize. 

I am borrowing my friends word of the year. 

It is a great word.  I hope you don't mind, Fi!

If you can visualize it, you can be it.

 

I am visualizing being healthier, but if I am to be

 

100% honest, I am also visualizing myself being skinnier.

 

I was looking at some older pictures of when I was skinnier and (healthier).

 

 

And although I don't want to send the wrong message because I know

just because someone is skinny does not automatically

make them healthy just as being *overweight*

does not automatically make them unhealthy.

 

But for me, for now, this is what is motivating me.

 

Being skinnier.

 

 

I am not set on a size per se but definitely set on a number.

 

A number that I used to be. 

 

 

 

 

(Taken July 2004)

 

This is where I want to be. 

 

Make sure to come back on Wednesday for my Weigh In Wednesday post.



 

This Is ME!

So I have written this post a few times since I posted my 6WS post about Accountability and my Operation Shed Some Pounds plan for the New Year. 

And just so we are clear, this is NOT a New Years Resolution.  I never make resolutions since those tend to be broken more often than not. 

This is a WHOLE lifestyle change. 

:::Eating better.

:::Exercising more.  

:::Everything in moderation.

This is a goal that I intend on reaching with flying colors. 

As I looked at this picture today....several emotions came into play.  Sadness, disgust, disappointment...  I know that my weight does not define who I am or my self worth, but if I am to be honest, I am disappointed in myself to have "let" myself go for this long.  It is TIME.


This is ME today but will not be ME tomorrow.

My starting weight on 12/27/12 was 279.6! The heaviest I have ever been.  My goal is to lose 75-100 lbs.


Today after working out the past 4 days I am down 6lbs!  I know alot of that is water weight and from the shock to my body but I will take it! 


You may have noticed I have a ticker on my side bar that I will update periodically. I think what I am going to try and do is a weekly post about my weight loss journey.  Maybe give it some clever name like Weigh In Wednesday.  I probably won't post a picture every time but I will give you a run down of the progress and what I have been doing to accomplish it.

Won't you join me? 


If there are others resolving to lose weight this year, please comment or email me so we can be of encouragement to one another.  If there is an interest I *might* even create a linky for others to link up weight loss posts on Wednesdays.  What do you think?

Six Word Saturday

If you have been reading my blog at least since last year at this time, you know I chose a word,along with several other bloggers, that we wanted to *live* for the following year. 

To recap, my word last year was:  Gratitude.  I really tried to be grateful EVERY.SINGLE.DAY for all that me and my family had been blessed with and although there were still definite pity parties  (more so I think in the last couple months) overall I *think* I was *intentionally* more grateful than in years past.  I made it a daily priority to be grateful for whatever was thrown my way, good, bad or indifferent. 

My 6 words for this Saturday are:

 

 

My word for year 2013: Accountable.

 

 

 

Definition of ACCOUNTABLE

1: subject to giving an account : answerable <held her accountable for the damage>

2: capable of being accounted for : explainable

 

 

Although much of this post may sound a bit selfish...

and maybe it is, first and foremost I need to be
Accountable to myself and for myself.

 

Accountable to take care of myself; mind, body & spirit.

Accountable for vocalizing my own needs.

 Telling others when I need help rather than  

enabling them and then resenting them later.

 

Accountable to tell others no when

I am feeling overwhelmed;

only I can do this.

 

Accountable for my own actions AND reactions

therefore putting me on a better path of a positive well being.

 

In a nutshell, Accountable for putting my own health
and well being above all else;
knowing with that I can be a better
Lord loving, wife, mother, friend, employee.

I feel that these last couple years I have put everything and everyone
before myself and I have lost my mojo.  I have run out of steam and it
clearly is apparent in my lackluster motivation of late.


Obviously, I will still be there for my children, take care of my children,
be there for my husband, take care of my home, work, etc...
but I am going to be much more intentional about taking time for ME,
taking care of ME.

And I have already taken the first step down my ACCOUNTABILITY path.

Operation Shed Some Pounds has begun.

I went and bought a new pair of running shoes this past week
and I am heading to sign up at the gym today.

 

 

I have never been as heavy as I am now. 

My goal is to lose 75-100 lbs this year. 

No gimmicks. 

No weight loss pills, shakes, payed for eating plans. 
Just a whole lot of hard work at the gym,
a sensible diet and everything in moderation.



I plan on posting weekly about my weight loss journey and hope that
you can join in helping to encourage me and motivate me. 

I will post a before picture soon (when I muster up enough
nerve and then will post more as I progress).

I know I can do anything I put my mind to but encouragement always helps.



What is your word for 2013?


I am linking this post up with Cate's 6WS at Showmyface.com.

If you want you can join in too. 

Post what is going on in your life at the moment in 6 words. 

Elaborate, shows pictures, or not.

It is up to you.


Hope you all have a fab weekend and Happy & Safe New Year!









 

 

 

 

 

Here Is The Skinny....

On average statistics show *we* (I say we because I am including most adults that eat anything of substance) gain 7-10lbs between Thanksgiving and New Years….

Let me put that in perspective: *we* gain the weight of an average new born baby! 

Oh my, I think I may have gained that just as I was typing this post and if not then I probably already did at Thanksgiving and/or will by New Years for sure.  I am one of those that if I even *think* about chocolate cake it goes to my hips.

Between all of the actual holiday meals of Turkey, Ham, Stuffing, Green Bean Casseroles, Pies, the never ending potlucks at work, the "just one more" hor d'oeuvres at the company Christmas party, etc....it definitely makes it hard to stay on task.  Kinda like the *Freshman 15*, did any of you experience that?

Here are a few tips of ways to avoid becoming a statistic and not gain the *Holiday 10* as I like to call it.

1. Practice Portion Control.  Everything in moderation.
2. Stay active.  This is a no brainer.  Hopefully all that mall shopping will do us some good.
3. Make your holiday meals healthier.  Instead of serving a pie or cake for dessert make something lower in fat with fruit.  Or instead of a "creamy" casserole dish make a vegetable dish.
4. Don't party hungry.  Eat a healthier light meal at home before attending party.  Then you will be full and not so tempted to over eat on all the snacks.
5. Do not overload on alcohol.  These are empty calories.  Drink water instead.
6. And last but not least if you slip up, don't give up and continue to overindulge.  Start again on the next meal. It's never too late.

Here is to a happy and healthy baby holiday season!  Cheers!