I can't believe that in 20 days my oldest daughter will become a wife? How is that even possible since I am only 25? LOL.
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In this time of Covid and limited stores being consistently open, inventory being scarce, etc...I never thought I would say this but thank goodness for Amazon and (mainly) all their amazing affiliates/sellers....without them this wedding may not be possible.
I have probably single handedly kept many of them in business, for sure. And I still have 20 days to go so who knows what else I will be buying with my Amazon Prime to make sure it gets here on time.
Here is my latest find. I searched all over for something "blue" and this is perfect!
This will be easy to clip into her dress, close to her heart and hopefully will be a treasuredkeepsake for years to come.
What was your"blue"item when you or your children married?
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I always see and say myself: Let Your Faith Be Bigger Than Your Fear!
Easier said then done, right?
How do you let your FAITH take over so you do not live in fear of what is next?
That is a tough one that I have been pondering for a long time.
You see I have FAITH.
FAITH in what I believe.
FAITH in people.
But I seem to lack FAITH in the "PLAN" whatever that is because LORD knows but I don't
I struggle. ALL.THE.TIME
You know what will be, what is next, the future, the unknown.
I always say "Thy will be done" , "What will be will be" but who am I kidding?
Do I really BELIEVE that? Do I really practice that? I try but it is HARD to let it all rest in his hands. I know if I could I would control the outcome and believe me I have tried, really tried at times BUT...it often times backfires. There in lies the reason why I should let it go...But yet I continue to stress and worry...to my demise.
How do you let your faith be bigger than your fear?
Yup, it was my youngest birthday this past weekend and for her birthday breakfast she wanted DONUTS...so DONUTS is what she got!
Her day continued with whatever her heart desired because it was HER day.
So we went to the park and had a picnic for the afternoon. Then she chose HER birthday dinner. Any guesses?
Meatloaf, Mashed Potatoes and Peas/Carrots!
Who knew? I didn't know that this has now become her favorite dinner.
And now onto her "friend" birthday party that we are having this weekend! In light of us returning from Hawaii a couple weeks ago, she decided on a Luau themed party.
I have a few tricks up my sleeve to pull this off. I will share what we did hopefully next week and post some pictures too.
I have 30 of these types of posts?? What? That is a lot of humiliation.... but I guess it is alright, better to laugh at myself than at others, right PLUS...I like to keep it real around these parts.
I am sure I can easily write 150 of these each week but I'd rather not bore you so I periodically post some of the more meaningful fails just for giggles. LOL. I figure when I eventually look back fondly on this little ol' blog of mine, I will at least see how far I have really come. Can I get an AMEN?
Talking about this little ol' blog of mine. We go way back (go here to see when it all started) even though I don't write nearly as much lately (last couple years). I have decided with the help of my, what I like to call life coach (ahh ummm counselor) that I am going to write more, I need to write more. I like to write. It is a good outlet for me, even if it is a silly post every couple days.
So bring on the humiliation....
1. Christmas (holidays) can't happen fast enough. I know, I know ba-humbug. I like the holidays, I just don't like the consumerism and all the hurrying that comes with it. So anticlimatic.
2. I love to cook but man, lately, I am a hot mess when it comes to actually cooking. The kids seem to be getting a little bit pickier as they are getting older so I feel like more often than not when I cook what I think is an awesome meal, they are like....nah, not so much. SO...I just don't cook a lot during the week right now. This to shall pass. Yes, I still feed my kids, just not a 4 course gourmet meal. (Ha! Who am I kidding, like it was ever gourmet!)
3. I wrote about this I think in my last confessions post which was last year, like 2016, that we haven't had professional Christmas pictures in a couple years and well, not this year, either. I take lots of pictures, I do, just not professional. Sorry not sorry. Have you seen some of these?
4. My paperwork at home is getting out of hand. I need an intervention. I used to be so good and organized with the yearly file boxes with a folder for each month to put all your paperwork in, warranty papers, bills, etc...and now. THIS.
5. My 7 year old daughter, one morning recently, crawls into my bed, it must have been around 5:45am right before my alarm was going to go off and says..."Mom, why do dogs lick their butt?" .....
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And I got nuthin especially that early! Kids, they say the darndest things at the darndest times. I had to save that one for later. Still chewing on this one. I think I will goo-goo it. Lol.
Goo-Goo, did you see the Italian lady who was gifted a Google Home for Christmas. Sooo funny.
Check it out.
Any confessions? Mom fails? Dad fails? Grandma fails? C'mon, it's safe here.
Knock, Knock...anyone home? . . . . . . How you doing? Long time no see, huh? Well I am not going to come up with some long winded, sappy, nor exciting reason as to why I have not been around these parts. It really is...I just haven't had much time, interest, and been going through lots of stuff...quite frankly, in all honesty, that stuff that has been going on...has been going on for awhile, I just chose not to talk about it...but now I will because it is part of my new addition... Now I know what you are probably thinking, the obvious....a baby, but nope certainly not that since Hotel Uterus has been closed as of this past August when I had a Hysterectomy. I actually got really sick last spring into summer where I had to have weekly iron infusions because of my low iron counts and well being a women, losing lots of blood every month was not very helpful so...had that sucker removed in August...now alas, it is supposed to be a routine procedure but leave it to me to take a detour. Ha! I had some complications and ended up in the hospital for almost a week. That was fun! I was out on short term disability from work for about 8 weeks. Fast forward a couple months later and the company I work for got bought! (I do still have a job under the new ownership however I have been struggling with the work-home balance since I have taken on a totally new role in said company) So "stress" has been my middle name for awhile.....oh and did I mention, it is my second oldest senior year so throw in all the senior stuff, last football games, last basketball games, college visits, college decisions....and you have one crazy, mad women...which leads me to my next confession so to speak... My husband and I separated, I actually filed for divorce at the beginning of the year....went through some pretty crazy stuff for several months while we were separated and ultimately have come back together to work on our marriage. Quite honestly, you know how people have those "aha" moments? Well I had one with regard to my marriage. You see I was the one that filed and I was adamant that our marriage was not working. We argued and fought ALL.THE.TIME. , on any given day, it was like a roller coaster. And the littles. My heart broke everyday because there were obvious times when their was tension between he and I that of course impacted the littles. I had to get off the ride, so I did. I filed. He moved out. We had joint custody. He had them every other weekend. He would have them on no school days until he went to work. The kids started getting used to the back and forth and their parents, they were happy, so they thought. But honestly, we were both miserable but to proud to admit it many times, to proud to take accountability for our own issues/actions that led us here, to stubborn and prideful to admit we were both wrong...it got pretty ugly for awhile there because of the hurt, the resentment, the words that were said by both of us...it was painful. It is still painful. BUT, with determination, with respect, with the love we know we once had for another, we are rebuilding our marriage, our family ONE.DAY.AT.A,TIME. My "aha" moment came on a Friday, March 10th, early that morning, as I laid there in bed, by myself, thinking about all that had been transpiring around me....and I was still. I listened. I am not going to say that I heard GOD "speak" to me per se... I mean I clearly believe in GOD and I know he can move mountains and heal hearts but I just had so much clarity that morning that this, the divorce, was not the right path for us; I know GOD had a plan and first "pushed" me to choose to separate (I know that probably sounds funny) only for us to both hit rock bottom and then come back together; Stronger. More Determined. You know the saying, you don't know what you got til it's gone...well yeah, that. We need to fight for one another, for us, as hard as it might be at times; for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part. I have seen this quote several times now and it sums things up pretty good.
Now of course, a couple months back into mending our marriage, we still struggle...but it is different. It is not the anger, resentment, roller coaster....we are a work in progress, every single day. We are learning to love unconditionally, trust wholly and communicate more effectively. It is not easy and in all honesty, I have caught myself a few times doubting things again, as I am sure he has too BUT....our story is not over. I know it takes two but I will continue watering our grass because the grass is greener where you water it. And the new addition I keep referring to:
